Dancing to the Tunes of the Universe

(Yes, I know, spelling error, whatev.)

So, I'm a loser. Instead of going through with my full hatius, I'm just getting a new name. Yes, I know.

So, please friend: orangechilican 'cuz that be me. And if I missed you on le friend list, forgive me. I'm just a lazy bastard.

So yes. I'm taking a hatius on this thing & live journal, after this update.

I've been just really exhausted for the past few weeks. I don't know if it's from Jay or what, but I'm pfft'd out. I honestly don't want to deal with an-y-thing. Which I know is really quite selfish, but fuck it. I just don't want to! I've been nice. I've been mean. I've been patient. I've been blah-blah-blah. I just don't want to have to deal with it anymore. Anything! I just want to kick back, relax, and if I must stress, let it be little things. I want to take time to worry about school, not whether my friend is going to die. I want to worry about boys, instead of worrying about what I'll have to deal with later on. I want to not worry about anything.

Not that I worry about anything before that much anyway. But, whatever. I know I'm being a huge angsty-cry-emo-loser, but this is my lame ass journal, and I shall be emo!!! I will!!

I know I never had to deal with anything that big in the first place, but it seems like a lot to me. And if it seems like a lot to me, well then it's A LOT FOR ME. I don't know why some people don't understand that. But whatever.

Simply, if I don't respond to you, I'm not ignoring you. I'm ignoring everybody. Because I'm selfish. And a big meanie. Honestly, I don't really care. I will come back with a vengance, but until then, Adios!

I'm taking a wee-little-break from LJ. I don't know why, I just am. So that's why I'm abandoning your journals. Forgive me.

I just...bleeeeeh.

I have like, 8 bruises on my legs and a few on my arms. Was I abused and just, missed it? 0.o' Oh dear.

I had knee sex today. Yep. It was amazing, my first time ever. *eye roll* (EXPLANATION HERE: Justin & I were hanging out when he reached over and rubbed my knee. Then he told me I was a whore and I had just had knee sex. I was raped, I say! Raped!) XD Love that kid!

Started my period again today. *sob* I fucking hate that. On the weekend of my party and everything.

I'm so proud of EMILY and TAYLOR, they scored in like, the 90-99 percentile of their grades. XPPP

Oy, time to chat to meh peeps, they need my lovin'.

PS. Justin says I'm never mean to anyone. So suck that, biatch!

Fucker, I just brushed my teeth in the shower for like, literally 10 minutes. Then I go and eat some cereal.

I hate myself.

Okay, so I'm totally having a dandy day! I've got my music plahing, my legs semi-shaved, and a lovely one-armed-yep-I'm-walking-and-hugging-at-the-same-time-hug from Justin under my belt today. *no pun intended* Because I'm seriously so fucking cool, and he thinks my birthday is today. :-)

Not to mention I finally woke up refreshed and not pathetically exhausted as I have been in these past days. And on top of that, obliterated from those pesky girly-emotional-feelings that have been getting me down. I blame it on the seriously abnormal, not to mention unhealthy, intake of processed food I've had this week. And it's getting better...

Party on Saturday, which will be fucking cool.

The only big bother today was that Jay got my cell number, so I've been dodging him even more than normal. There's only so much I can take, you know? I blame the pesky buggar Patrick. *facedesk*

Finished Citizen Girl which I liked well enough. Not as good as Nannie Diaries though, not even close frankly. 1984is giving me a hard time; I can't seem to get into it. I'm on page, 251 or something, and I'm barely getting it. I mean, I get it. But really, shut up. I know, the world is going to end in corruption. Then we'll blow up. Then magically we'll be reborn or the earth will die and nobody will care 'CAUSE WE'RE DEAD! But that's just me.

My half-eaten-day-old candy cane is divine. In case you were curious.

Although, this major canker sore is a fucking bummer. I will not let it get me down, no no.

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"I'll have a slice of your mother"
-Franz Ferdinand. And my curret favorite lyric. =P

Backtrack: My Birthday: so many, many things happened that day. Jay came home from the hospital (after slitting his wrists) which brought out mixed feelings about him and every other boy I knew. I ended up on a girly-tirade-rant about how much better I could have it with Justin or Patrick or a number of other boys I love to death. But simply, naah. It'd take way to much effort than I'm willing to put out. So, I'm over it now, just like Tori said I would be. So wise you are *pat pat*

I also went to Macayos where I devoured 2 tostadas and 3 sopaillas along with plenty of soda. Then home to a few peices of cake. Yes, I'm a fat girl, I know it. It was fabulous; I love that place to death.

Top 5 Restaurants:
1. Panda
2. Macayos
3. In & Out
4. Tuscan Cafe
5. Spegetti Factory

Then I sat in the driveway with Patrick just chilling, which is always nice. All and all, I had quite a nice time. My celebratory party is officially on SATURDAY to Sunday. We shall sleep in the guest house as to avoid infuriating the parents with our "noises". It should be some serious fun. Heh, yes.

Pimp Time: arrestedicons has the best Arrested Development icons in the world. Love.

Thank you to everyone who wished me a happy birthday! THANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOU! You all totally made my day, woot!

And thanks to pumperknickels for the would-be- fab-happy-birthday- picture of Conan, if I could see it! (The direct link broke, you just have to re-post it).

Meme & such:
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Love to all!

erm, will do a thorough update later. But today had it's really good points, and it's really bad points.

So, t'was good. ^_^

Yesterday, Heather, Amber, & I went to the Summit to pick up a white shirt, for meh, and a red shirt, for her. T'was quite fun.

Today I went to my first Driver's Ed class and liked it. The instructor was funny and I'm not totally oppossed to driving with him. He seems patient, but firm. So, woot for meh! (If anybody wants to join, you still can. You get *Big* discounts on insurance).

Used my new razors, my legs are nice.



EDIT:
Fuuuuuuuuuuck. Jay went full-blown fucking EMO on me. ARGH- just because you cheat on me, doesn't mean you slit your wrists okay? I thought we covered this is OH, 8TH GRADE??! Uuuuuuuuuugh. Lame.


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Ohmygosh- Justin is the sweetest thing. He has totally made my day, or evening, whatev. XD I just love him, even if he is crazy.

*huggle*

Yeah, so I'm in such a shitty mood. Nothing seems to be going right for me these days. I know it sounds a lil emo for me, but whatev. I have bigger concerns than what anybody fucking thinks. People I love and care about are fucking up and leaving. Or they're just doing what they always do and don't realize what the fuck it's doing to me. Honestly, I don't know what's bothering me so much, I just know it sucks. And that I wish it was over. Hmm, this is the first time in a while I haven't just copied out of my LJ, I like this better.

And the shitty rap music Maggie is blaring isn't helping any.

Goodies underneath the cut.

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Yeah, Desert Ridge sucks. For some reason they carded us a million times and actually followed us into Panda (but Cherel was there so, ha ha fuckers!) to ask if we had ID. Seriously, just because you couldn't make it as real cops, doesn't mean you can take it out on us. >>'

Anyway, The Producers was okay, but the first one was way better. Then again, I don't quite care for musicals so, eh. Hard to say. Uma Therman was simply adorable in it.

Yeah, I'm done for now. Check out Tori's londonroses version or, Heather's velvetknickers. Tis much better.

Hah, just finished watching The Hot Chick. Daaamn, that's a funny movie. I just love it.

I've been loading music onto my other computer in order to download onto my iPod shuffle (which I finally opened, yay) but it's taking forever. I think I'm going to die just waiting for it. >>;;

School has begun again, but it isn't too bad. This year is wayohsomuch better than last year; I actually enjoy *a bit* my sophmore year. Word up, fo shiz :P!

I need to get my nails done again; I think I've fallen in love with manicures xO. Yes, it's true, I love 'em. Heh, who would've known?

As everyone knows (or might not) my birthday is on the 10th of next week, woot! And I've decided to have a party after much debate.

Who? Whoever.
What? My birthday partaaay.
When? Friday 13th (this was unintentional. Heather planned it, not me.)
Where? My house.
Why? 'Cos you love me.
How? Everybody is dropped off at my house, we hang out, watch shillions of movies, pass out after stuffing ourselves with abnormal amounts of food. You all get picked up in the morning/afternoon/whatever.

Peace.

Heather is helping me set up the amazingfantasticprettydamnlovely layout fangy89 made me, Squee!

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Woot, lost my Holiday + Vacation weight and am back into my happy place: 102 lbs. Celebrate everybody!!!

Argh, my head hurts real bad. Come to think of it, so do my eyes? 0.o'

Woke up at 8 in the morning to celebrate Mum's & Max's birthday. I sorta didn't get Mum a present, oops. But she didn't let me go yesterday, so she got what she asked for :P. Then, the whole bloody family went on a hike up a mountain to look for torquiose, I know.

A few hours later we were loaded up and driven off to Cracker Jacks where we spent our time trying to avoid our Father (who was trying to run us off the go-cart tracks) and laughing at my attempts to get a par (in mini golf) of under 20.

Dinner at Macayos, which is my love. Home to cake. And now for whatever I want.

:]

I have decided, along with Heather, that I will get a job! I'm setting aside a day in which I'm just going to go around applying for jobs. Everywhere. But not anywhere, I have standards. I'm thinking
-Tower Records
-Bath & Body Works
-Barnes & Noble
-Library

I have also decided I'm gong to have to start...*whisper* volunteering. I know, but don't get your knickers in a twist, I'm not going to feed the homeless or anything (heaven forbid) I'm just going to hang in the ER and at the library. Make myself look good to distract them from my test scores.

Why this sudden change of attitude? Why have I turned into a responsible person?
I haven't.

I've just been ordered by Mum to "try and make myself usefull and not totally worthless". So, I'm getting a job. I might even try for my permit again, but that's doubtful. My confidence is totally blown (on that subject at least).

So long, I've got to play doctor with Jay. Literally. He has some kind of stomach flu & Cam fell off a roof. I'm so good; taking care of people, go me.

P.S. My new ringtone is Heather singing Dreeaam weaaaver. I love it.

Bleh, new year. Which means I'm obligated to

x. get a job
x. get my license
x. shave

Gawd, life is so hard.

Hee, sometimes meh sister Kim says the most fabulous things:
"Don't hate me because I'm beautiful"
I'll try not to Kim. XP

Ohmygod- last night I was looking at old photos and year books...
Enough said?
No.

x. I was an fat kid
x. My friends were adorable as kids
x. I'm jealous

Wtf is Lauren IMing me for, bitch.

That's all for the new year.

Time to look back on 2005:

1. Discovering the obvious about the ones I'm closest to.
2. Learning to just party and do what I want to.
3. Dancing on the roof under the stars, just like something I'd read about.
4. Meeting some amazing new people.
5. Keeping my old peeps laughing.

and the rest is honestly, just a blur. One big ass blur, that's for sure XD

Yesterday, went to see Memoirs of a Geisha with Heather & Tori, which turned out to be very good. Smuggled some Panda into the theatre, despite Tori's dire warnings, and feasted. Bought some darling shoes (2 pairs, spazz!) and Max's and mine bday present.

I totally just got done watcing Napolean Dynamite for the first time! Oh..my...God, best movie ever.

Oh yes, ambergini made my day with a card, yay!

In the year 2006 I resolve to: Point and laugh more. Get your resolution here

In the year 2006 I resolve to: Becoming a mail-order bride. Get your resolution here

In the year 2006 I resolve to: Stop checking my e-mail at 3:00 in the morning. Get your resolution here

Check out this infuriatingly insane article on Conan O'Brien

collectoddities

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wtf, mate?

DAILY ACTIVITIES OF TODAY:

1. Woke up around 2
2. Took a shower
3. Napped till 6
4. Called Tori
5. Nursed a headache
6. Talking to my man Jerome!

...and here we are XP

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What do ya'll think of the new layout? I have a few ideas but I'm still working out the details :)